I've done a stupid thing

sumpah hari ini gua berasa bego banget deh. sedari pagi gua sms-an sama koko angkat gua, si ko irsan. yah dia salah orang yang gua ajak curhat tentang masalah gua sama cowo gua. trus sapinya dia malah bilang wah jangan" cowo lu udah ada cadangan lagi HAHAHA! gitu tuh kata dia. sapi bener deh -_________-"

eh trus gua melakukan suatu kebodohan berdasarkan kata" dia. dia nanya sama gua "sekarang di hadapan u lagi ada pemberian apa?". yah gua bilang boneka dari cowo gua. trus dia bilang "apa lagi?". gua bilang ada laptop, hape, sama anjing gua. soalnya emang gua lagi dalam kondisi tiduran. trus dia bilang "coba u liat laptop u. itung dari Q-M putus-lanjut begitu terus. gua bilang "dapetnya lanjut nih ko. and then?". trus dia bilang "sekarang u jalan dari ranjang u ke pintu kamar. sama juga itung putus-lanjut". trus gua bilang "dapetnya juga lanjut nih ko. hadeh nih maksudnya apa sih?!" tanya gua penasaran. dia cuma bilang "udahhhh tar gua jelasin. sekarang u injek boneka u terserah mau berapa kali deh". pertama sih gua ragu buat nginjek. 1. gua bingung buat apaan ini diinjek. 2. ga tega buat nginjek. boneka gua terlalu lucu. boneka babi -___-". eh tapi akhirnya gua tetep injek deh. kira" 20 kali. trus akhirnya di jelasin apa artinya. "apa yang u lakuin buat yang pertama sama yang kedua itu sesuai dengan harapan u. tapi dari dalem hati u, u pengen putus. soalnya barang pemberian dari cowo u mestinya ga u injek". JEDER! sialan. berasa dikerjain gua -____-". trus gua bilang tadinya gua juga ragu buat nginjek! tapi dia bilang "sesuatu yang lo pengen dan bisa lo prediksi pasti lu bakal setuju"in, tapi kalo di luar prediksi lu, itu keinginan lu sebenernya". ih sumpah lo jadi galau lagi kan gua hadehhh. trus dia ngomong sama gua "kalo emang u maunya lanjut sama cowo lo yah lo ngomong lah sama dia apa yang lo mau. toh dia bilang dia trima kan apapun keputusan lo?". eh iya juga sih. should I? =X

two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one


I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

this song is really dedicated for you dud. I really still remember what you wore on the first day we met. the way you called me haha. you called me" anak nyasar di untar" :'p. then after that we were getting close. I still remember all of that. even for the words you said when you asked me to be your girl. you want me to be your last. HAHA! such a fool! no boy in this world can do anything based on their words. but, that is such a sweetest lie I ever heard. God, can I go back from the beginning? I really wanna repeat all the sweet moments with him. he's the only one who is having a relationship with the longest term ever. I always think that I wanna be serious with him. but, now it really make me going to be crazy. I feel like a zombie. flat. empty. even you've made me like this, I can't lie to myself that I still love you whatever you are.

resah

hai bloggers! kali ini gue ngepost lagi pas masih pagi. huft. sumpah gue lagi galau mateng! gue lagi break sama cowo gue dan ini udah hari ke-4. DAN! hari ini sebenernya hari jadian gua yang ke-5 bulan. I even bet he didn't notice it :(. kemarin itu memang kita udah anggep clear masalah. you must be known if you read my previous post!

yah karna masih ada ganjelan dalam diri gue makanya gue minta break dulu waktu hari rabu kemarin ini. dan, jawaban dia unbelievable deh, dia cuma bilang "yaudah terserah kamu. apapun keputusan kamu aku trima skalipun itu putus. waktu itu gua cuma mengiyakan.

setelah gua crita ke beberapa temen" gua, gau semakin sadar emang sepertinya dia gada hasrat buat pertahanin gua sama skali yah. buktinya aja deh, kalo emang dia sayang sama gua, dia pasti bakalan pertahanin gua apapun caranya. bahkan waktu break ini pun kayaknya dia ga mikirin gua seujung rambutpun! HAHAHA you're so poor henny! I'm feel nothing! :'(

mungkin memang satu"nya jalan terbaik buat gua dan dia itu adalah putus. tapi, jujur gua gamau. gua masih sayang dia apa adanya. but, buat apa dijalanin tapi dianya sendiri gada hasrat lagi sama gue? ya ga? I'm feel like having one sided love :(

GOD, please help me! what should I do? :'(:'(:'(