I should stop. I shouldn't let it be liked this!

I think day by day it's kinda got bigger and bigger.
I don't know how to describe it.
Indeed I didn't meet him everyday,
But this feeling is successful in entering my heart inside.

Maybe me and him didn't talk too much.
Didn't send text messages everyday.
Though it's only by twitter or maybe ym.
I've already been happy if I have talked something with him.

Just like today.
It's really made me crazy.
You see your beloved person but you can't even say anything to him.
Even say HELLO!
Oh shit maaaaaaaan.
It's really made me feel so saaaaaaaad! :'(
I just can see him by a glance from far then I have to turn my face back if he by accident realizes it.

Whereas I seldom meet him.
I seldom to talk with him when I meet him in class.
But why? WHY???
Why I have to have feeling like this with him? :(
I'm so sick when my friends tease me with him.
My friends say that I'm suitable with him.
I'm happy to hear that but I have to throw away that feeling.
I feel that he still loves his beloved person in past.
Yes, his EX.
And I think he doesn't have any feeling with me.
So, please stop teasing me with him :(
If in fact he doesn't have any feeling with me, it's really make me *yeah* hurt :(

I really don't wanna think about him, but it's already.
I really don't wanna imagine him, but it's already.
Please stop hanging around my head :(
And I should stop myself from the beginning.
I shouldn't let my heart to go deeper than it.
But, I can't control myself when I see him.
I don't know why but I just can't take my eyes from him.
Every time I have a chance to see him, I'll see him for sure.
Have I fallen in love with him?

I Don't Know

hai! stelah sekian lama gue kaga ngeblog hehehe. bener" udah banyak sarang laba" di mana" -_____-

dan ini adalah post pertama gue di taun 2012 ini. telat banget yah. udah bulan februari padahal wkwkwkwk! XD

yah kali ini gue balik ke blog karna pengen share sesuatu aja sih. abisnya entah gue harus share kemana lagi selain di sini :') secara gue juga bingung mau share dimana lagi #LOH beribet amat yah hahaha XD

yah gue lagi bingung aja nih gue harus bagaimana. kalo diitung" yah udah hampir 6 bulan gue putus dari kevin si piggy :') yah sometimes ada rasa kangen. sometimes ada rasa kesepian. tapi, gue mengingat lagi apa yang udah dia perbuat waktu dulu dia sama gue. it's really really damn hurt :') tapi yaudahlah lupain aja :) let's move on now! I'm too good for him. gada dari diri dia yang bisa gue banggain hehehe.

yah sekarang ini gue lagi gencar"nya di gosipin sama satu cowo satu jurusan sama gue. kalopun gue pake inisial pun gue rasa pasti udah pada tau -___- secara itu rame banget yah di twitter wkwkwk. yah namanya itu okkie setiawan. smua ini berawal dari temen gue, si angeline, yang bikin gue bedua jadi diledekin errrrrr.

dan entah kenapa gue pun jadi ada rasa sama dia ini :| yah bukan dari sejek diledekin juga sih. tapi dari sejek gua sering curhat sama dia. waktu gua masih dalam kondisi di ambang batas sama piggy, dia yang sering kasih gue masukan. dan setelah putus pun gue sering banget curhat sama dia. dan makin lama makin menjadi ini feeling sejek diledekin.

dia memang lebih tua dari gue. gue sama dia beda 3 tahun. dan itulah yang membuat gue suka sama dia. karna gue merasa dia itu dewasa. bisa ngelindungin :$ HAHAHA.

dan yah akhir" ini makin menjadi" loh yah gue diledekinnya. mulai dari temen" kita bedua yang interogasi kita bedua. ampe kemaren itu di twitter gue ditanya "lo sebenernya suka kan sama okkie?". entah gue harus jawab apa. karna kalo gue jawab yah ketawan dong -___-. tapi yah tanpa ditanya pun harusnya mereka semua tau dari gerak gerik gua.

okkie itu emang gendut, ga cakep, pokoknya chubby banget WKWKWK. tapi yang gua liat dari dia itu bukan fisik ato materi semata. entahlah yah apa yang dari diri dia yang bisa gue banggain. pokoknya di mata gue, dia itu kliatan charming. and I can't take my eyes from him everytime I see him. dan stiap kali ada dia, beneran dah gue ga bisa brenti untuk senyum atau nyengir. ouh maaaaan. I feel like this, how about him? :(

dan kemaren itu gue sempet nginep di kostan stella. ada dia di sana. yah ga cuma dia sih. ada vivy, saly, ngenge, sama tomi. tapi entah kenapa dia malah ga balik ke kostan gua. dia baru balik jem 5 pagi. apa karna ada gua kah? :| aishhh! ga boleh mikir gitu ah. geer banget gue :')

dan trus yah kemaren itu gue sempet diledekin ngenge kalo okkie mau bawain gue buket bunga. eits tapi abis itu langsung diinterupsi sama stella sambil bisik". yang gue denger sih "nge! gila lo yah tar ketawan okkie mampus lu!". trus abis itu ngenge malah langsung senyum nyengar nyengir ketus sok nutup"in gitu. so? jadi beneran kah? :|

kalo kata temen" gue sih sebenernya okkie pun ada rasa sama gue. cuma yah gitu dia malu karna diledekin. emang sih si ngenge pernah crita sama gue, kalo okkie suka sama cewe yah cuma diem" aja. so? jadi bener ga sih? :|

GUA BINGUNG BANGET GELA HAHAHAHAHA!