I Don't Know What I Must Feel

First, I want to say that MAYBE I have to give up with you. MAYBE I have to use my white flag.

TO. FORGET. YOU.

Back again to my heart. I don't know what I have to feel too. I'm LABIL. I want to keep straight this fate. To always love you but based on logic MAYBE it's useless to be done. Because I know MAYBE I don't have anymore chance :(

And MAYBE I'm not included again in your eye range. I'm not someone whom you ever always thaught about just like you said before on 10th May 2010. And it's hard to have your heart. You always have my heart. ALWAYS. You ALWAYS have it from the beginning. But, I won't ever have yours. So sick :')

And MAYBE my friends' words are true. MAYBE I have to let you go. MAYBE I have to forget you. MAYBE and always MAYBE.

You know why I use word "MAYBE" from the beginning? Because what I've written before I can't guarantee I can do all of them. If only I try to do that, MAYBE I can't do in 100%.  So what should I do in the end? I don't know.

And, I you ask me why I still have this feeling until now, just like I ever said to you.

I. DON'T. KNOW.

I love you with no reason. I even don't know what is something special from you which has made me like this. All I know is I love you just the way you are.

And ALWAYS I want to say, I'm sorry for ever turning from you. I'm ever turning from you two times. I'm sorry because I can't keep always my feeling with you. But, it's not my fault at all. Why don't you ever say a GOODBYE to me if you don't want me to always feel like this? You know, I ever asked you to be my brother, but you didn't want. WHY?

You ever felt like to give me a chance by becoming close with me, but why in the end you pull yourself from me?

And I'm sorry if I've ever been overacting with you. Been so freak with you. But that's all just to make you sure that I'm ALWAYS waiting for YOU. ALWAYS.

And now I'll keep silent. I promise.